It’s a new year, a new direction, and a bright future. I have been married, earned more pride from the Marine Corps, reconnected with close family and friends, have a determined and busy future in college (to finish for real this time), and have a plan to keep it all going strong for as long as possible. Am I done yet, not even close. I still need to have a better fitness regimen, a better study habit, and more fortitude to concentrate on school and not role off course once again. I am by no means infallible, and I must stay on this track because this one is for real. I will put the Marine Corps right where it belongs – as a part time job. After ten years of battling the force it is finally paying off for me in Spades. With a promotion it will only get larger – if it comes.

I want to improve my relationships around my friends and family everywhere. I have been bit distant to many in the past year mostly because of distance itself. I have missed a very many things including my sister’s wedding and my best man not being at my wedding – both of which were my fault and just poor timing. I want to help my friends whenever possible and be more on time with their needs. I want to be a better husband even though I would declare myself as pretty super awesome. If needs become that great I will even be the man who puts a gun to Stu’s head to make him shape up before I ship him out, permanently. See if you remember this threat Stu – BALLS-CUT-OFF.

I am in a good place right now; I just need to survive this winter as the low time of season sets in. The general malaise that creeps in as the weather becomes frightful and the celebration season comes to a close. I always seem to get low and hibernate within myself in this period, staving off people and work and it saps my drive to want to do work unless is required of me. If it is for self-growth, I won’t have the gumption to help myself out like that. I need to train myself into thinking that studying is like video games – every bit as frustrating but one cookie leads to the next, bit by bit I will become one of the best teacher’s out there. To do it I must be one of the smartest. This is done with only drive and passion. Passion I have but have been suppressing for years as to mellow myself out some, but now I thing I need to kick that flame back on and torch up what I need to do to make things happen.

This is not so much a New Year’s rant as I have never done such a thing and mostly it is just bullshit to say your going to do something starting on day one. This is something I have been lining up during the entirety of 2009 and everything is just now falling into place. It’s not the day, it’s the timing. My timing has vastly improved baring the aforementioned periods already mentioned, and it has all to do with my choices and the help and counseling of my closest friends and especially my wife. Growing up I always thought it would be cool to be married but never cared if it happened or ever sought out for it. I was retarded, because it has opened more doors for me than anything else in my life. It helps I found my match, she’s not perfect – she is so much better than that.

Last year was a year of motion, of change, of flux. This year is a year of strive and of growth. Help me keep on track this year Internet and do not lead me astray into the abyss, for that abyss is so much worse than hell. Even demons look upon 4chan and say, “At least we aren’t that bad!”